Paige DeSorbo wasn’t exactly charmed by her relationship with Craig Conover in the months before their breakup.

The Summer House star got brutally honest about potentially wanting out of their three-year relationship during the Bravo series’ April 16 episode.

“I’ve said to him so many times, ‘If this is not what you want…'” the Giggly Squad podcast cohost told costar Ciara Miller, who interrupted with, “But you’re putting it on him. Because it’s so much easier to give the other person the out than to really dig deep and determine if that’s what you want.”

A seemingly defeated Paige added, “I just want to run away and change my name.”

Plus, Craig previously voicing concerns that her months-long Giggly Squad live tour might put a strain on their relationship only made her feel bad about her increasingly busy career.

“I feel guilty that I’m not more happy,” the 32-year-old admitted to her BFF. “I’m like, ‘I wished for everything I have.’ I’ve literally manifested the apartment I live in, manifested having a boyfriend who’s obsessed with me, I love my career. So, then, why am I the most anxious I’ve ever been in my entire life when I have everything I want?”